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Removing Obstacles

Monday, August 18th, 2008

Please join me as I guide you through a short meditation to remove obstacles on you path to your most abundant life.  Each of us encounters difficulty in life, but only you hold the key to transcend these challenges.  This meditation creates the space within to unlock your own truth…Come, discover your answers today.

Weekly Meditation Podcast: Feeling Abundance

Thursday, July 24th, 2008

This is a short guided meditation to manifest abundance in your life.  Last week I focused on manifesting abundance through the imagery of a Chalice.  This week we will manifest abundance with the now well-known idea of the Law of Attraction  - “The Secret.”   In this meditation discover manifesting is a full-sensory experience - not just your thoughts!

Weekly Meditation Podcast: Manifesting

Wednesday, July 16th, 2008

This is a shortened version of my Chalice of Abundance Meditation.  Use this meditation to clear blocks and manifest your most abundant life.  Enjoy!

Everyday Meditations - My Ideal Body

Wednesday, June 11th, 2008

This guided meditation focuses on connecting to your ideal body.  There is no perfect number, but there is a feeling of satisfaction.  This meditation offers support as you transform into your ideal self emotionally and physically.  Enjoy! 

“I could never do that…”

Tuesday, March 11th, 2008

I know I am in trouble when I use the word “never.”  It usually is an indicator of my judge being in charge at that moment.  Ok, there are a few “nevers” we can agree upon regarding certain crimes, but even then this is a small list if you really look at in reality. 

 It would be my hope to I would never kill anyone, but honestly if me, my children, my husband were being violently threatened – hell hath no fury as this redhead and all bets are off.  I am again being reminded of my protective streak this week.

 A dear friend of mine is being hurt.  In fact, this is at my church.  I am horrified by the behavior of my minister and a controlling board on a witch hunt trying to force my friend out.  Interestingly enough as witch hunts go – this will explode in their own faces. 

 Witch hunts operate on assumptions and fear.  They are usually full of contradictions - thus easy pickings for those of us based in truth.  What lay beneath the witch hunt is judgment and “I never…”  It has been my experience, when that motto is at the forefront of a cause - there are hypocrites involved. 

 In this case, it has to do with assumed inappropriate behavior.  Red flags everywhere.  Warning - judgments abound.  So our minister is trying to force out the associate minister while her own niece, the youth minister, is doing the very same things she accusing the associate minister of doing.  Oh, it is a wicked game indeed.  Hence the witch hunt will to explode in their faces…Because the niece has been saying – “oh no, I never…”

 Unfortunately, there are cameras and witnesses that tell a different story.  Oh a tangled web we weave trying to deceive…So our minister is loosing her congregation person by person.  It is strange to see this unfold.  Strange that someone I admired so much and looked to for guidance again and again could come to this place.  Feet of clay.

 We all have them.  Sometimes they lead us to foolish places, but there, there amidst your own stupidity and follies – there is grace.  It is in our foolishness our beliefs are revealed.  Beliefs that are sabotaging our lives every today in quiet ways.  But this is the grace – the opportunity to see the folly in your ways and turn. 

 Turn to more.  Turn to a life of fullness with all your glory and warts revealed.  Yes, that is me too, feet of clay.  I am no better then my minister.  I trust this is part of her learning, her journey – blind spots to be revealed.  My job is to stand and reflect the truth.  Be a light of truth – no matter the cost - because I must.  I am no Judas. 

 A few years ago I read with my minister in Bible study as Jesus asked his disciples to watch with him on his last night.  I could barely stand the scene as I kept complaining to the group, “Who are these men?  Falling asleep not one time, but three?  How can these be the disciples?  Nothing divine about them?  Who does this?”

 My dear minister wisely asked me, “Kelly, have you ever fallen asleep?  Not shown up?”  Uuughhh, it was like a physical blow as I saw the disciples were me.  In the moment the bible became real to me and I am forever grateful. 

 So I trust, I can only see in part.  All will be revealed later.  

“You learn to bear it.”

Monday, March 3rd, 2008

“You learn to bear it.  Yes, some things you just learn to bear,” were the words spoken to me the other day with a tight smile and condescending eyes.  I was shocked – you learn to bear it?  Are you kidding me?  And then again she repeated this philosophy, “Someone of my advanced years has had more experiences and learned that some pains are learned to be lived with, to walk with.”

 Again, I was speechless.  Was this woman serious?  Could she possibly be trying to tell me that her life pains/traumas were more painful then mine and one day I too would gain entry into this elite group that walks with pain?  The most difficult part of the interaction for me is – she was serious.  Her pains, her life experience were so hard – she proved it, she beared it everyday, proudly even.  I shut my mouth, not questioning any longer, but spinning.

 Yes, I was triggered – “Hello, Miss Victim, lovely to see you again.  I didn’t expect to see you here.  My, my, the social circles that you run in!”  Breathe Kelly, breathe.  There, sitting in that small circle, I saw pain.  I saw several people sitting with their pain – trying to make an uneasy peace with it somehow and I wanted to run.  I have never been a big fan of suffering, or even giving too much attention to it really.

 In my early twenties, I was in a bad car accident that left me in chronic pain for almost three years.  It was not good.  I dropped too much weight, couldn’t eat because the medicines had damaged the lining of my stomach, it was a bit pathetic, but I kept walking through – searching for cures and trying to laugh.

 One of my dearest friends worked with me in the same company.  We worked in different departments and he would call me every morning singing Karen Carpenter songs.  Totally not PC (and I definitely do not mean to offend anyone with this joke/statement except the chronic pain that I was clutched by), but I would laugh uncontrollably every morning by the circumstances of my life.  I was a pin.  I felt like crap all the time.  I was taking 20 -25 pills a day.  My life had become about when to take my next pill.  I finally understood suicide.  I understood it was about survival, not death.

 Ultimately, I found my way back.  Through alternative medicines, I found cures and answers.  What I also discovered was these physical signs (i.e. bulging disks, chronic pain) of my accident were the outwards symptoms of my inward pain.  Let me explain…My childhood was violent, full of addiction and I tried to disappear there – blend with the wallpaper as to not draw attention or wrath.  Here this was happening again in my twenties…My car had been hit from behind, totaled, I was now addicted to the painkillers and sleeping pills prescribed for me as “the cure” and I was doing my best to disappear – not eating, getting skinnier and skinnier every day.  So, I ask you – is this where I bear it?  Are you kidding me?  No, this is where I found surrender and peace.  The bearing it was killing me.

 I came to the belief that there is a valid reason for everything that happens.  I came to view life as connection - not events that happened to me.  I came to believe I was not alone.  I discovered the divine in all things.  Life now appeared to me as a continuum, without known destination.  I discovered no one is lost to me, but will return again and again in different masks.  And most of all I discovered, I could lay my burdens down and I found a true relationship with God. 

 “Bearing it” has only disempowered my life, myself and most of all my relationship with God.  I have come to accept that today, I can only see in part, all will be revealed in time.  And when my fears, my anxieties, even my own victim self reveal their presence still - I smile, start singing a Karen Carpenter song in my head and think, what do I need to lay down?     

Letting go of old beliefs and welcoming peace…

Friday, January 25th, 2008

Over the years I’ve “done a lot of work” on my spirituality and emotional well-being.  I have been compelled to live “differently” than my family of origin.  Amusingly, what I discovered is to “live differently” you have to make different choices in essentially the same circumstances that first caused pain…perplexed?  Let me explain…

 Over the years I prided myself (should have been my first clue) in not being competitive - like the rest of the family.  Both my parents were coaches and teachers – intense competitors ultimately ending in an ugly divorce and my brother was a fantastic athletic with a keen desire “to win at all costs.”  So, I turned my back on all things to do with sports and competition – not me.  You wouldn’t catch me screaming at the TV, radio, team member, players because my team didn’t win.  I was better than that…or was I?  I came to discover my competitive streak lay in the covert - I am most competitive with myself and how I “should” be. 

 A few summers ago, my family (me, my husband & 2 kids) were getting ready to go away on a Church family camping trip.  Unfortunately there was a miscommunication between my husband and myself and he picked up the kids before all the packing was complete.  If you have ever tried to get ready for a trip with two small children underfoot you can imagine my irritation…No, I was mad – how could he do this?  Is he a complete idiot?  I couldn’t let it go. 

 I forgot to pack things we wanted or needed on the trip and I blamed him.  I got madder with each mile as we drove closer to the Church family retreat.  It’s about this time I started to think maybe I was crazy.  How could I get so angry about this?  Why? 

 I realized “why” the next day as I walked the labyrinth in the woods.  I wanted to be perfect – the perfect Mom who remembers all the right “stuff” to bring on the trip - filling needs before they are known.  Everyone could see how “good” I was at mothering.  I would be one of “those” Moms who had it all together.  Wow – I was competitive, but in covert - the most destructive kind, manipulative and desperate.  I kind of laughed when I really saw the magnitude and its destructive impulses in my life.  In that moment – I made a change.

 I immediately apologized to my husband, again, for my lousy behavior/attitude and I was grateful.  It was like I pulled a mask off unseen forces in my life that were now, no longer able to sabotage at will.  I took myself down from a pedestal I created to survive an unhealthy dynamic.  I now allow myself to be competitive in healthy ways – goals, exercise…and I let myself play with competition through games and races. Competition is a useful tool in so many ways; motivation, success, growth and now, even fun.  So I do live in a “different” home than of my origin, but the surprise is - peace came through expansion and acceptance of competition.  Not it’s exclusion, but it’s balance. 

 

Overcoming Blocks While Meditating

Sunday, January 13th, 2008

Over the years, both through meditating myself and supporting my clients in their practices, I have discovered some blocks that may be halting your progress with meditation.  Here is some guidance to help you through these blocks…

 1.         “I can’t quiet my mind.”  I believe this is the first big hurdle in meditating to overcome.  First, try guided meditation instead of attempting to pick meditation up on your own in the silence.  This gives you something to guide you out of your incessantly thinking mind.  Don’t worry, as your practice develops you will be able to meditate in silence and find peace, but first, you have to open the door to this quiet place inside gently.  Berating yourself for “not getting it” fast enough just hurts you and really plays to your ego.  Think of it like any hobby or sport you pick up – it takes time and guidance to become comfortable. 

 2.         “I don’t have time.”  Almost all my clients in my private practice want to add meditation to their life, but time is a big stumbling block.  Even for myself I sometimes run into this problem.  That’s partly why I created my Everyday Meditation series – daily ten–minute meditations.  I’m not of the school you have to meditate for 20 minutes or more a day.  I’m a Mom, wife and  business owner…I do not live in an Ashram where I have hours to devote to a meditation practice – I live in the very real, busy world.  So if you only have 5 minutes right now, take it – spend five minutes concentrating on your breath.  I promise you will feel better and surprisingly, the 5 minutes will stretch longer as you feel more comfortable and relaxed with your practice.

 3.         “I fall asleep.”  During workshops this often comes up because my clients believe they fall asleep during the meditations. Upon ‘waking’ from the meditation they don’t remember anything, except they feel much better.  This “falling sleep” response is when your conscious mind goes to sleep because it is not interested in what is going on.  For example, maybe you’ve gotten in the car to go to the store and upon arrival you don’t remember driving there?  Well, you’ve probably driven there dozens of times and now it has become automatic, your mind is free to think of other things instead of directions.  Another reason for this “falling asleep” response is the topic of the meditation may be too upsetting to look at directly and again, your mind is protecting you by falling asleep and allowing the healing to first begin in your sub-conscious.  I often intentionally fall asleep to meditations knowing its healing affects on my sub-conscious.  If you are feeling better after the meditation, except it, don’t fight it.  Again, as you heal your sub-conscious, this ‘falling asleep’ response will just slip away and you will become more present and ‘awake’ during your meditation.

 4.         “I don’t like the imagery in the guided meditation.”  While I was teaching a meditation workshop a student complained that she hated meadows and couldn’t fall into the meditation due to this.  The meditation we had just finished was set in a meadow and connecting to safety.  She kept saying how barren and dead meadows are…This was surprising to me because meadows are magical places for me full of life.  I asked her to look at her language and her life.  The meadow she created was in her own mind – she made it barren, without life.  The meditation was in fact informing her of this barren view point.  I suggested she herself put life into the image in the meditation – adding trees, flowers, birds, etc.  This is actually a direct opportunity to heal.  This is a gift of meditation to gently heal yourself in your own time. 

 5.         “I know I’m not doing it right. I must be missing something.”    Maybe you’ve read you can be closer to God or manifest things through meditation, but you are not feeling this.  Relax. We live in a society that loves to compare – restrain yourself.  Ask yourself this, do you feel better – maybe calmer after meditating?  Yes, you are doing it right.  Let this practice unfold in your life gently.  I promise magic will happen.

 I hope this helps you overcome some blocks in your own meditation practice.  If you have any further questions or concerns, please contact me.  I am here to help.  So be it.   

What is a Psychic Reading?

Saturday, December 29th, 2007

A psychic reading is an opportunity to gain more insight and open the door to your best life.  Usually the psychic or reader will use divination tools such as Tarot and Runes along with their own innate intuition to divine answers to questions, issues or fortune telling. For me, a good psychic reading empowers clients to transform his or her life abundantly. 

  

Each psychic is “reading” in accordance with their own gifts.  Therefore, some are very good at future predictions while others specialize in healing/transformation and still others specialize in medium work with spirits, etc.  It is helpful to understand your own needs and motives before seeking a psychic as to find the best “reader” for you.  Research on the web, personal referrals or even conversations with the psychic prior to the session can alleviate any of these concerns.

  So where do psychics get their abilities for divination?  Intuition? Some is natural, some is time, some is acquired learning or mentoring and some is listening and watching…For me, it’s all of these things and more.  

  

My Celtic ancestors called it - thin places.  This is where the magic happens – where the fairies and the real world overlap.  This is the place for me.  My psychic gifts have revealed themselves as “an opener of doors.” 

  I like to think I give my clients a map when they leave my door.  Together we’ve cleared away any blocks, glimpsed the road ahead, some opportunities and even obstacles to avoid, but the drive is still your own.  A good psychic reading involves trust and I believe an opportunity – the opportunity to step into your best life.   

How to Get a Good Psychic or Intuitive Reading?

Saturday, December 29th, 2007

 Each of us would love to “peak forward” a bit and gain insights for a better life.  Psychics offer this possibility, however there are some things to know before making an appointment…

 1.         Psychics are not always right.  Most good psychics will tell you only about 80% (on a good day!) of future predictions will come to pass.  Why?  Well, I tell my clients, what I am showing you is possibilities – you still have sway over future events both positively and negatively.  I like to use future events to empower your life today.

2.         Get referrals.  I suggest only making appointments with people you have been referred to, researched online or spoken to yourself.  Let’s face it, there are scams everywhere - so be smart.  Lots of psychics have web sites where you can read about them, styles of intuitive reading(tarot, runes…), articles they’ve written, etc.  Discover what resonates with you.  This little extra work will pay off in a good reading.

3.         Bring specific topics to look into for your appointment.  Chances are - the psychic will touch upon your big issues without need of your input.  However, I believe each of us gets the reading we “need” instead of maybe the one we “want.”  So the psychic may not immediately focus on the topic you desire without guidance from you.

4.         Be open.  Chances are the psychic will tell you some things you were not expecting, both good and bad.  Some of the words will resonate with you at the session while others words will become clear in your mind days, even weeks later.  Most psychics offer to record the appointment so you can go back later and listen.  Often, as you listen again, you will hear things you missed the first time.  

5.         Have fun and remember this is information.  I have been going to psychics since my early twenties and have been reading for others since 1996.  I love psychic or intuitive readings – however, over the years, I have seen persons who have been completely wrong as well as persons who are on the money nine times out of ten.  Use the information gleaned from your session to empower your life, not a crutch to wait for the inevitable outcomes.

  Psychic readings can be a powerful tool to transform your life.  They offer a chance gain insights, heal old wounds, to begin to live your best life today.  May it be so.    

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