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“Do you meditate?”Well, I should, I know it, but I just don’t know how to get started….Chances are you are drawn to meditation because you want to relax, reduce stress, maybe become more present, could be that you are trying to stop an incessantly thinking mind.Guided meditation leads you out of your “old thoughts/patterns” and replace with some new positive ideas…
Are you Feeling stuck?Guess what?You are not alone.A couple days ago a friend and I were discussing how nothing seems to be moving – all the hopeful possibilities that were appearing on the horizon are, as the saying goes, dead in the water…I then remembered Mercury goes retrograde on May 7 – yuck – a time of much inaction and confusion.Later that same day, Karen Bishop’s most recent post happened in my mailbox and I was reminded that sometimes, whether we like it or not, we enter the waiting game…
I suggest to you that May is a time of waiting, watching and hopefully, shifting.If you are like me, you can feel a change coming, but from where?How will it look?This tension in transformation is exhausting and when you are locked within transformation, sometimes you forget that this is temporary – it feels like this will go on forever, but it will not.It is temporary.
So if you find yourself in a waiting game, here are a few suggestions on how to use the energy and discover the hidden gifts held within this still period in time…
Today we are going to discuss prosperity and how to get it flowing in your life today.Maybe you are a bit anxious with tax season, selling a house, job security worries, a downward economy. Well today, let’s shift those energies to begin working for you instead of against you…
Meditation is more than just a way to feel better in the moment. It is a transformational pathway to your best self. Transformation is not a passive activity. Even a caterpillar may appear on the outside to be resting in its cocoon, but, in fact, there are many changes beneath the surface to become a beautiful butterfly.
Look at your life, really look – where is there lack? Is there no love or joy? Are there aches and pains, maybe even money problems? Has your life become full of “not enough.” Guess what? It didn’t happen overnight. There were many choices and decisions that have lead you to this place. A large measure of what has lead you to a “less-than” life is your belief system formed through the conditioning of your childhood, social status and economic level. This belief system most likely is sabotaging your life right now.
For example, if you were like me and raised in an alcoholic, violent home, you may have issues with safety – not feeling safe, not trusting. These unconscious messages of, “you are not safe. Nobody is trustworthy,” cycles over and over in your mind and in your heart sabotaging you choices and decisions.
Instead of discovering the abundant life that surrounds you right now, you draw into your life people and experiences that validate the belief of, “I am not safe.” This belief may well have been true when you were a child, but now you are an adult. This thought pattern no longer serves you, but traps you in an unhappy, frustrated experience.
How to make a change? Try adding daily guided meditation – a path to release self-defeating patterns and thoughts and begin to integrate a new, abundant belief system into your life. Why daily? It takes time. It took you years to lock these unconscious negative thought patterns into place. So, it would stand to reason, that it would take some time to establish new ways of thinking and being.
Once you’ve established a new, healthy belief system, daily meditation continues to support and connect you to your best self each day. Meditation grounds you to the present moment and provides you the space to focus on manifesting your most abundant life today. Doors open and opportunities appear.
Over the years I’ve “done a lot of work” on my spirituality and emotional well-being.I have been compelled to live “differently” than my family of origin.Amusingly, what I discovered is to “live differently” you have to make different choices in essentially the same circumstances that first caused pain…perplexed?Let me explain…
Over the years I prided myself (should have been my first clue) in not being competitive – like the rest of the family.Both my parents were coaches and teachers – intense competitors ultimately ending in an ugly divorce and my brother was a fantastic athletic with a keen desire “to win at all costs.”So, I turned my back on all things to do with sports and competition – not me.You wouldn’t catch me screaming at the TV, radio, team member, players because my team didn’t win.I was better than that…or was I?I came to discover my competitive streak lay in the covert – I am most competitive with myself and how I “should” be.
A few summers ago, my family (me, my husband & 2 kids) were getting ready to go away on a Church family camping trip.Unfortunately there was a miscommunication between my husband and myself and he picked up the kids before all the packing was complete. If you have ever tried to get ready for a trip with two small children underfoot you can imagine my irritation…No, I was mad – how could he do this?Is he a complete idiot?I couldn’t let it go.
I forgot to pack things we wanted or needed on the trip and I blamed him.I got madder with each mile as we drove closer to the Church family retreat.It’s about this time I started to think maybe I was crazy.How could I get so angry about this?Why?
I realized “why” the next day as I walked the labyrinth in the woods.I wanted to be perfect – the perfect Mom who remembers all the right “stuff” to bring on the trip – filling needs before they are known.Everyone could see how “good” I was at mothering.I would be one of “those” Moms who had it all together.Wow – I was competitive, but in covert – the most destructive kind, manipulative and desperate.I kind of laughed when I really saw the magnitude and its destructive impulses in my life.In that moment – I made a change.
I immediately apologized to my husband, again, for my lousy behavior/attitude and I was grateful.It was like I pulled a mask off unseen forces in my life that were now, no longer able to sabotage at will.I took myself down from a pedestal I created to survive an unhealthy dynamic.I now allow myself to be competitive in healthy ways – goals, exercise…and I let myself play with competition through games and races.Competition is a useful tool in so many ways; motivation, success, growth and now, even fun.So I do live in a “different” home than of my origin, but the surprise is – peace came through expansion and acceptance of competition.Not it’s exclusion, but it’s balance.
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