“Now remember with Saturn going retrograde, karma is due.  Old lovers are going to contact you.  It’s resolution time baby!”  I said on Indie Spirit last week…

As these words came tripping out of my mouth days ago, I was thinking, oh Kelly, heed the warning sister…Yesterday I was contacted by a long, lost lover.  He found me on Facebook, of course.  He is far, far away in another country ~ bored in the middle of the night.

This man was not someone I loved, nor was I someone he loved, but we shared a magical escape once a long time ago.  He wanted to know if I still had my tattoo.  He wanted to tell me he has never forgotten my tattoo or me…

We wrote of kids, marriage and laughed about our own adventures.  We chatted up happy lives of here and now.  It was somewhere in the middle of the chat, I felt myself detach – why was this happening?  Ok, Saturn retrograde, yeah, yeah…but what do I need to hear and what could lead me astray?

And he wrote it again, “I just wanted you to know I will never forget you or the adventure…”

I responded with a laughing, “Never ever.”  Just then I realized he was making sure I didn’t ever forget about him.  He needed to be SEEN as that guy from that night.  He needed to be tattooed into this memory.  For it was tattooed onto him.

Now I could be lead astray here, wanting this experience to be more, but it’s not about me.  Yes, it is a compliment to be contacted and remembered, but it really has nothing to do with me. It’s about him.  Just as my reaction years ago was about me…

We were in Ireland celebrating my Mother’s 50^th Birthday with my stepfather, Mom, nine-year-old sister and me.  It was kind of ‘the best of times/worst of times trip.’  For an entire week my mother treated me like I was nine instead of 26.  We could only stop at places in the travel guide Fodor’s.  Needless to say by the last night in Ireland I was ready to cut loose.  My family flew out that day and I was alone for a night…well, not for long.

It was a night to remember.  Completely separate from me and my life in the states.  When I got back to the states I told a friend about my adventure and he reflected back to me, “I think you just needed to prove to yourself you weren’t a child but a woman.”

He was right.  I needed to prove to everyone I was not a little girl!  I laughed immediately and that became my focus of that experience – being in the fullness of womanhood.  Empowered, attractive, fiery, passionate, bold and laughter.  Celtic Brigit energy surely.

Fast forward to now.  This lover of my youth is now a middle-aged man.  Something drives him to connect again to that brash, young man from long ago.  He is compelled to be seen fully as that man from that night.  He needed to know that guy is in there, somewhere.  Only he knows the reasons why and I will not ask.  My life is here.

For my Celtic Brigit energy has only grown wiser.  The Goddess Brigit has three faces – the maiden, the matron and the crone.  I have left the maiden on distant shores years ago.  I am in the matron phase with a beloved husband, beautiful children and a graceful life.  Yet amusingly, I have been gratefully reminded that I am still that lass of yesterday too – empowered, attractive, fiery, passionate, bold and laughing.  Glad some things never change.  Thank you Saturn Retrograde.

“I want a RE-DO!”  Guess what? You can. Saturn goes Retrograde Weds – giving you a RE-DO somewhere in your love and/or career life. What does this mean for you? Join us on Indie Spirit as we explore the opportunity to RE-DO, laugh a lot, meditate and enjoy some fantastic Indie Music.

New Year, New Beginnings – What’s stopping you from getting the life that you want?  Join us all January on Indie Spirit as we JUMP-START a NEW YOU. Discover new tools to transcend blocks/old patterns. Finally begin living the Life of your dreams…Thurs, 11 am EST on Indie Spirit

Do you have a Holiday Hangover?  Are you stressed-out and overwhelmed with Hanukah, Christmas and New Year’s coming up fast?  Stop and join us on Indie Spirit as we laugh, meditate and discover common sense solutions to life’s ups and downs.  Don’t miss out on the Moon/Energy Report – New Moon on the 5^th and Mercury is going retrograde soon…Indie Spirit Radio Show @ Thursday, 11 am EST.

There are moments in each of our lives when we see things clearly.  We get it.  We understand the ‘why is this happening?’ immediately.  Clarity.  However what you choose to do in those moments is the transformational part.  Do you seize the clarity and right your path, or do fears bind you to the same?

Fears of ‘can I do it?’ or ‘what if I make a mistake?’  ‘What will people think?’  Or could it be that physical or emotional pain ties you to a past that just won’t allow for true happiness?

Surprisingly clarity can be the result of making all the right moves or all the wrong moves.  Clarity can show up at 2 am or three years from now…the only truth you can expect from clarity is – it shows up when you least expect it.  And you feel it from deep within because it’s the truth.

Some people hide at these moments.  They talk themselves out of the truth that is staring them in the face.  For clarity is usually inconvenient.  Decisions need to be made and clarity is just staring at you, almost taunting you.  The other aspect of clarity that you can discover is, it’s about freedom.  It’s a moment of free will.  No controlling or putting a lid on things works at these moments – they are raw.  That’s when things can get messy, for awhile and then…something more.  Fuller living.

Often we want to think our way through life.  Follow a plan.  But life doesn’t like to follow a plan; it’s much sticky than that.  So you wander through life, bumping into the reality that you can’t think your way out of anything, no matter how hard you try.  No matter how late you stay up, no matter how many re-plays in your mind…You can’t think your way out of anything.

However, if you use a mind, body and spirit approach – well the opportunities are endless.  This is where clarity is born, from listening to your intuition, your passions and your heart.  Amazingly this is also when you discover the possibilities for happiness are endless too…

Dating can be an exercise in torture, but it doesn’t have to be! Join us Thurs on Indie Spirit @ 11 am EST as we discuss the Do’s and Don’ts of Dating.  Expect simple tips, meditation, great music and much laughter as Classic & Kelly reveal what guys/gals are really thinking…Indie Spirit Show on Blogtalk Radio.

For the next 24 hours try this exercise – speak your life into being.  Speak as though the life you desire is unfolding right now.  For example, want a new job?  For the next 24 hours say to yourself, I have a new job – it’s fantastic.  I can’t believe it – just fell into my lap.  Feel this new job.  Think about the new office, maybe your desk is there – what photos are on the desk?

Or maybe you are lonely and want a fuller life.  What if you began saying to yourself – people like being around me.  I get invited places.  People feel good when they are around me.  I have good friends.

Or possibly you feel overwhelmed, stressed and are looking for support.  What if you said to yourself, support shows up, unbelievably when and where  I least expected it.  Feel how good it would be to feel supported, feel a lending hand enter your life…

Just give it a try and let the magic unfold – opportunities appear and doors open when you believe…What have you got to lose, but everything to gain????

Has your life been affected by an AFFAIR? Do they matter?  Why do they happen? Is Forgiveness possible?  Join us on Indie Spirit This Thursday, 10/14, as we discuss Affairs and Relationships on Blogtalkradio @ 11 am EST.  Discover what is possible with tips, meditation and more than a few laughs…Come, join in the chat. http://www.blogtalkradio.com/indieonair

Can you allow your life to be easier?  If you start rebelling at this very notion as to the reasons why your life can’t get easier, well, this is for you…

Stop.  Just stop with the problem-making.  Take a deep breath in, down into your stomach and let the breath go.  Ok, one more deep breath in and let go.  Feel your feet connected to the floor.  Press your feet down a little, allowing yourself to feel the support beneath you.  You are right here, right now. 

What do you need to get done today?  Be realistic.  Start a daily list, but only allow yourself to put eight to ten tasks on it – the rest can wait ‘til tomorrow.  If need be make a couple lists, what needs to be done today, and what needs to be done this week (can be longer.)

When you start organizing your life, it’s amazing how much more time you can create!

What are healthy boundaries?  Are friends, Family, co-workers taking advantage of you? Are you doing too much?  Discover simple tips to create better boundaries and start taking care of YOU. Join us Thurs @ 11 am EST on Blogtalk for tips, meditation, indie music and laughs. Bring some friends.